Tomorrow is another weigh in

Well just for the JM forum. Every other Monday I weigh in for the BL at the gym. This morning i was 179.6, .2 lbs lighter than usual. I did have a bout with water retention due to my weekend splurges. I am going to have a busy day tomorrow. I am hosting a sleepover for Jayda and 4 of her friends. I have to finish cleaning and prepare whatever it is we are going to have at the party, including snacks, drinks and some spa products so they can be 'girly girls'.

I have 20 days left until Dion comes home and I have 4 lbs to lose basically. I know i can do it, but it's the unknown that drives me nuts. If you haven't realized by now, i am impatient! The fact that I am in the 170''s thrills me, but i don't want to get complacent like i did when i got into the 180's and then stopped for months. I want to continue going full on at least until i reach the 160's (which i haven't seen since the beginning of my pregnancy with Jaylon. I won't stop there but i will be more relaxed.

I hope to see another number on the scale like 178.8. For some reason my weight always ends in .8 lol.

I am coming down with a stubborn cold, it doesn't want to progress, but it won't leave either. I hope it just leaves! Well tonight my weight is recorded as 181.8. This is the lowest nightly weight i've seen. It shall be interesting!

170's in...170's back out?

Okay so after all of the excitement of having my new weight loss achievement I end up having to take my daughter to the worst mall to meet up with friends. It's an uppity mall with the worst food court. I would think with all the fancy shmancy stuff they have in their stores, they'd have some healthy choices, but no! So i end up with beef and broccoli from the chinese place. I didn't eat all my rice and i tried to leave as much sauce off of the food. I am not sure of the nutrition value, but i am sure it wasn't good, but not horrible.

Then i had a smoothie, not sure if they actually use sugar. I asked the girl and she said no, but i don't believe it, i am sure they have it in their concentrate or something. I can't find anyting online about their company.

Then Jaylon asked for some doritos, and well i figured i'd treat myself to some, so DJ and I shared a bag. GREAT...

Then i get home and thinking of the fact I had a birthday party to go to so late, i wanted something in my belly, not even thinking about them having a cake. So i ate a skinny cow dessert. Then got there ordered my delicious fish, ate a salad and a baked potato (sour cream on the side with a little butter on the side). Needless to say, i don't know if i did better than what i have listed on the daily plate, or if i am much worse. I hope not worse, cause the #'s for sodium are aweful, as is the fat and all that. Fiber was almost non existent

I am quite sure i will not weigh 179 in the morning. I am not fretting, just wish i could enjoy yet another day in the 170's. Once my body regulates i'll be back in good order lol.

In such shock!

I surely didn't expect to step on the scale this morning and see 179.8~! I did it, i really did it! I had to step on the scale more than once to make sure i wasn't dreaming lol. We go out to eat tonight (it'll be seafood) I am going to be out a lot today too, so I definitely don't want to gain anything. I know i'll be fine. I am just going to live in the moment. I wanna treat myself to something, but IDK what.

One step closer

This morning for my forum weigh-in, I weighed 180.8. I weigh-in so much that I don't realize at first how great that is, until I see that last friday I was 1.6 lbs heavier. So this is great! I am losing just about 1.5 lbs per week, which is fine by me! I am not looking forward to having a plateau and hope that if I get one, it's after I get out of the 170's. I say this because I haven't been below 172 since before I got pregnant with Jaylon, so that would be 2003.

I am getting so so close to 179 that I am just so impatient and going crazy. I can't wait to see it. But even when I am closer to just a plain ol 180 lbs, that'll mark 30 POUNDS LOST! That is just so great! I remember at one point before i started this journey (forreal) I was telling myself that this was my destiny and to get over it. I thought that maybe I was meant to be fat and that's why I wasn't losing it. But NOOO that is not my destiny and I wasn't losing because I wasn't doing what I was supposed to. I wanted to eat what i wanted to eat and not exercise like i should and figured that should work. Well it doesn't. Yeah i could have lost weight without working out, but it's not the same.

I can feel the muscles in my legs forming, and I remember how great my legs were as a teen. I know I will never get my body back like that, but to get to the best shape I can be in at my age now (which is still young), is just a great feeling.

So, next time I report, I am hoping that I will have some great news, either way it'll be the official 30 pounds lost OR that AND I made it into the 170's lol

I think i dread tomorrow

...just a little bit. It's weigh in, not like it means a lot but I hate when we log our weights in and there's nothing lost. I don't know what to expect for tomorrow. I really thought i was going to be in the 170's by now...It's not going as planned..not at all. I don't think i'll even be 180. I am not sure if it's because of my cycle or if i have to lower my calories or what! IDK Maybe it's because i want it so badly that it's not happening. I can't say that. I worry to much. I know that having AF will jack your weight up...i need to give it some days. Maybe by my WW weigh in on Monday.

At any rate, nothing special. I met some of the girls on TBL team at the gym. I am surprised that my trainer has recommended a fad diet "lose 10 lbs in 3 days". I would never recommend that to anyone. I dont' care if you do lose 10 lbs, i know it can't be healthy or worth it. If it were, everyone would be able to do it.

Anyways that's it...that's all

Just another Manic Monday....

I can't really complain, nor do I wish it were Sunday, and I don't wanna runday lol. I know cheesy, i had a flashback to 80's...sorry!

Today I did my weigh-in for The Biggest Loser contest at the gym, and had measurements. Well Well Well...my hips finally decided to go down 2"! That's great. Last time i got measured they had gone up 1 inch, so now it's back to normal plus an inch...or...minus an inch.

I ran on the treadmill for 45 minutes. I had a better 2 mile run time, this time 30 minutes flat whereas last time it was almost 32 minutes. I see that as an accomplishment. I ran at 6mph, shocking and so revolting. I am seeing that I can do this! I am capable of all things if I truly put my mind to it.

I tried the level 2 portion of 30 day shred, and boy what a difference. I love level one compared to level 2, but level 2 really kicks butt! I am truly sore from doing weights, 30 day shred and 45 minutes on the treadmill running a majority of the time. I still can't believe that I am running, I've always hated running. My new shoes are way better to run in, no ankle boo boos!

I was 181.6 today when i weighed and 34.7% body fat. All of my numbers are going down and that's awesome. I feel that I will be 179 by Friday. I am so close, so close, so close.

I applied to be the JM forum co-host for the weightloss and fitness board. At first i thought, no way! But that's just me standing in my way again. I am always thinking that i can't do something, knowing that I am awesome! I mean the only time i DON'T do something or CAN'T do something is when i stand in my own way! I want to inspire these ladies just as the past co-hosts have. I hope i can keep the girls there and keep the board lively or i'll feel like a failure. I have some cool tricks up my sleeve though.

Well at any rate, tonight's weight is 182.4. I know i shouldn't weigh every day, but whatever, i want to! lol

A new month...a new opportunity

Today was just an ordinary Sunday. We usually go to church and then head out somewhere to eat (if we have the money or have the craving). We went to TGI Fridays, although a majority of us wanted to go to a hibachi grill. I knew I had to order something that wasn't going to make me feel so filled with guilt, but also something I would like. I just hate those dishes with a nice piece of meat over some nasty rice they make UGH... I can make that at home. I'd rather have a nice steak with some broccoli and some sort of carb.

Anyways, I ordered the bruschetta chicken pasta. It probably would have been better if this particular location cared about their quality. I swear each time we've gone there is something I don't like. I always like their jack daniels, but c'mon it's a sauce, I don't know if they can get a meal wrong by dousing it with the yummiest sauce ever lol.

So i eat my usual half-a-portion and start going to town on my kid's extra set of fries. Overall I still did well though. I went to my MIL's house and we made a guilt free dessert consisting of cooked granny smith apples in splenda over some low sugar vanilla ice cream and crumbles of Stacy's cinnamon pita bread chips. This hit the spot!

Tomorrow is the beginning of TBL contest at the gym. A part of me really really wants our team to win this. We definitely have competition. I know a girl on one of the other teams and she goes in there working her tail off and I have to make sure I do just the same, but i don't know her eating habits. I know i have to start using healthier filler snacks vs. some of the snacks i've had which are good, but not as good as having a salad for example.

My weight tonight so far is 183.8. I am trying to see how it will be in the morning. I definitely want my end of the week weigh in to be 179 at 'most'. My next goal weight is to be 175 by the time my husband comes home. That's what we set up and I want no more than that! I just need ot stop thinking so hard and just start relaxing and enjoying this journey. I have done such a great job, i have to admit and I can't wait to make it to my final goal...whatever that 'really' is.

My breakfast for tomorrow will be a french toast with strawberries. I am going to change the recipe in that i already have cinnamon and brown sugar bread, i will just coat it in the egg beaters and then pan fry it with olive oil spray. I hope it comes out well this way, if not...well at least i can eliminate it thru trial and error.

I had been on Ediets for a short while so i have not had to cook for myself, but now that has changed. I have to be creative so that I can have the maximum results.

We'll see how it goes...day 1 here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!1